Her face against yours in that picture
made the volcano inside of me erupt.
The emotions spewing from my body
felt like acid reflux; unwanted and abrupt.
Confrontation was not what you wanted
but my gloves were ready for the ring.
Preparing to fight until you insisted
that we were the exact same thing.
My head dropped to my chest
because I honestly could not see
why you had turned something like this
into a battle; her versus me.
You consoled me and did not blame me
for feeling the way that I did.
I waited days to give you another chance
like I was some dumb little kid.
I made your bed when you showered
and I saw her name light up your phone.
We never discussed what this was
but how should I have known?
Screaming at the top of my lungs
each time I drove over to your place.
But soon my heart would melt
the second I saw your charming face.
Just tell me why you are friends with her
even though she is miles away.
Yet I am the one knocking on your door
begging like a stray dog who wants to stay.
Maybe this was all my fault
I am still not exactly sure.
But now I know your secrets
were something I could not endure.
Months have gone by without seeing you
but it has honestly felt like years.
I tend to think she is still in your life
and it brings me to my knees in tears.